Changes

It's been ages since I have stopped to even put any type of thoughts down on the blog.  I love to provide updates to my non-existent readers, but sitting down to post at night is the last thing I want to do. To help change that, I have decided 2016 is the year of change for me!  I want to change (in a good way) so many things about my personal life, work life, and just little things.  While I did not sit down in January and do an update, I did start on changing things.

I have always been a firm believer anyone can change if they set their minds to it and really want to change in their heart.  Changing yourself is always the hardest goal to achieve.  I realized at the end of the year, I no longer wanted to have some of the negative traits I saw in myself.  I was seeing that I no longer first saw the good or positive about a situation, but the negative.  I realized this was not the example I wanted to set for Zoey. I wanted her to see me as a strong, positive woman, not a negative woman.  While I am doing this for her, I am doing it more for myself.

There is so much that come to play that makes us fall into this type of pit.  I recongize a lot of them in my life.  A handful I cannot readily change due to it is out of my control.  Another thing I fall short of, letting go of things I cannot control.  Yikes!

To start the year off, I told myself I wanted to be more positive first off. Stop seeing the bad and complaining about every little thing. Surprisingly, to myself, I am accomplishing that.  While it might take a while for others to see it, I can tell a difference. I feel "lighter".  While I know negative thoughts and feelings can weigh you down, I had no idea how much!  It will continue to be a work in progress and there will be bad days, but I am determined not to let that get me down!  I can do this!

If you are reading this and see me fall back into my old negative self, please call me out on it.  I am still learning how to let go of things and get them off my chest without sounding like I am complaining or being negative.  One of my favoite signs I had as a child, which is hanging in Zoey's room today as a reminder to myself when bringing her up, says "Please be patient with me.  God isn't finished with me yet...".  Oh how this applies even to us as adults today!