Down memory lane...

I have decided to share how each of the past relationships in my life affected me.

B: My first love. The guy I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I grew up a lot with him. He was my first big everything. Not really sure what went wrong in the end, but I know that I lost a part of me with him. He will always be dear to my heart for that reason. I did lose part of my sense of romance with him. I became skeptical that I would ever find love again. Granted I know if it was suppose to be, it would have worked out. I'm grateful for the time I had with him, but am grateful it did not work out. Thank you for the experiences and life lessons.

M: First relationship after B. Started out as friends and slowly lead into more. The official relationship was short lived, while the unofficial one was long. We got through our last year of college together. Not the best relationship you would want or stable one. Ended on a bad note, to only because good friends later on. Funny how things work out.

D: This is an odd one. Not to say he is odd, just odd how it happened. This relationship is partially the reason why M and I didn't speak for awhile. Not that I cheated on M with D, just a result of that. This relationship was fun. The end was messy more or less. It was bound to happen, and should have happened sooner. There are no hard feelings (well on my end there’s not) as to it ended.

M: This one is unique in its own. M is wonderful. The first time I met him, I knew. I had that feeling. M made me believe in love again and that it was real and I would have it. I always got that feeling when I talked to him; saw him, or even when I thought of him. I saw a future with him. Then my grey cloud came over. I seem to have one of those when the relationship is great. To this day, I’m not 100% sure where we stand. I do know I still care for him deeply and will always. He brought back a part of me I thought was dead.

Each one of these has a part of history in me, but I do not let them affect the rest of my life. I do not dwell on them or wish I could go back (maybe the last since I have a feeling it’s not over yet). Learn to cherish each one of our relationship to the fullest.