The past couple of days I have been thinking about my life and future. I have looked back on everything I have accomplished and memories of childhood. Even as I sit here and write this, I'm reminded of my family. The quilt I'm wrapped up in is one of four. My sister and two cousins have one of similar design. Years ago, my mother designed four quilts for my grandmother to quilt for the four granddaughters on my dad's side of the family. Granted my grandmother only got to finish two of them.
This afternoon I talked on the phone with my mom for two hours--some of you might think that is nothing, but honestly for me it is a very long time. It was actually sort of refreshing. I’m very thankful my parents raised me in a proper manner and taught me what is right and what is wrong. Yes, at times I may not always make the right decisions or choices, but my parents still are wonderful parents.
I feel for my mother right now, at the moment, her three younger brothers are not upholding the fine morals and beliefs my grandparents instilled in them. It’s hard for me to grasp as well, granted one out of the three it does not surprise any of us. I just wonder what my grandparents are thinking and hope they are not too disappointed in their children. In light of all this, I will be able to see my two uncles who I do not get to see as often as we all would like a little more.
My mother and I got on the subject of marriage. We have a close family friend who unfortunately cannot get along with his ex-wife. The tragic part is their 5-year-old son pays the price of this. His son does not want to leave his father when it is time to return back to his mother. My friend wishes he could gain full custody of his son, but until the mother can be proven to be unfit or his son can testify that he wants to live with his son, this will not happen. I told my mother that I am in no hurry to run off and get married. It scares me that people do not take marriage seriously anymore. If and when I get married, it will be with that one person who loves me unconditionally and will fight for me till the end. I know too many people my age who have gotten married and then two years later decide they cannot work through their problems and end in divorced.
I began this post by saying I had been thinking a lot about my future. I have begun my career to a great start. Along with the position I hold now, I have been in development for two years. I enjoyed almost ever minute of it, but I knew from the first minute I did not want to do development forever. I have said this multiple times, but it is still true, I never thought I would be where I am. I know I still have a long way to go and have a bright future ahead of me.
Career goals are not the only dreams I have been thinking about lately—personal ones have been on my mind as well. I’m not ready to settle down, but I do want to one day. I do know that I want to get married and have that person to come home to every night. A small reason I have been thinking about this, is I noticed I do not cook near as much as I used to. Cooking is a passion to me. Lately, I have been too tired to cook when I get home from work. I am trying to start getting up earlier and either do more in the morning so when I get home from work I’m not doing other things or go in early (7) and get off at 4. I really would like to do both, but that means getting up at 5.
I have more thoughts and ideas, but as you can already see this is a long post as it is. I will continue the post later.
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